How I Fucking Miss Being a Kid

	Cinderella Bass: 07/14/2008 3:06 AM 21 cents? That sounds a little screwed up if you ask me :S But I agree, even though I'm 15 I miss playing chasey or tag with all my friends in kindergarden ah well, i spose we have to take life as it comes, yeah? P.S: I know how you feel about chasing people, I can still run but only if I have to - I hate running now haha
	vancecordell: 07/14/2008 3:10 AM cindann said: 21 cents? That sounds a little screwed up if you ask me :S But I agree, even though I'm 15 I miss playing chasey or tag with all my friends in kindergarden ah well, i spose we have to take life as it comes, yeah? P.S: I know how you feel about chasing people, I can still run but only if I have to - I hate running now haha Haha
	xxguerilladixiexx: 07/14/2008 8:39 AM i do the same thing. i sit and think about how diffrent things used to be. i was raised by my grandfather and wen he passed away my life did an about face. things were never the same again. i do alot of things to in ways hold onto the same care free feeling i had as a child like playing on my sports teams. it my sad attempt to hold onto what i have left of my youth i suppose. and yes like you mentioned about the finding "an assortment of other vices that all seem to do the same thing: Dumb us down." im guilt as charged. every night i kick back with my significant other and my friends have a drink to 'unwind'. but all in all vance, i suppose i would rather cope with the stress by having a drink at the end of the day or by absorbing myself with my sports as a means of maintaining aspects of my youth then being like some people (as we talked abt in ur other journal) and refuse to grow up at all and live my life stuck in a pathetic rerun.
	real36: 07/14/2008 10:46 AM Well, first off you still are a kid, in my eyes anyway. 18 is so young. (I was married at 18, almost 19)You have so much to look forward to, Depending on how you look at it. Middle class huh? I dont look at things like that, its the rebel in me that has never fully left and probbaly never will. It was good raising my kid. They were some of the best times, some years were hard but most were good. I miss them sometimes. At the time when you are in it, you worry about money and other things. I was young when I had my child. An outlet as we get older to "dumb us down' you say? I didnt do that. I did however used music to help me through stressful times. Still do. I do NOT re-live those days as you say. I like the here and now much better. I like "me" much better than I did then.Probably b/c I had to be the proper parent and do everything just right and push my true identity aside. Now, I dont have to, I just live the way I choose. If someone doesnt like it, not my problem. I dont hurt anyone, so no harm done there.When you get older you start to realize those things. I am more of a kid at heart now than when I was twenty something. I was more grown up at twenty something than now. I also have more fun now.We all have responsibilties and I take mine seriously, when I have to but not for too long or I'd go bonkers! No, I wouldnt pay 42 cents (or whatever it is now) to mail in a check for 21 cents. Call them and see if they can get rid of that for ya. Get names and write it down, in case they forget. They have a thing where they are allowed to waive certain monies under a certain dollar amount. Good Luck.
	vancecordell: 07/14/2008 12:55 PM real36 said: Well, first off you still are a kid, in my eyes anyway. 18 is so young. (I was married at 18, almost 19)You have so much to look forward to, Depending on how you look at it. Middle class huh? I dont look at things like that, its the rebel in me that has never fully left and probbaly never will. It was good raising my kid. They were some of the best times, some years were hard but most were good. I miss them sometimes. At the time when you are in it, you worry about money and other things. I was young when I had my child. An outlet as we get older to "dumb us down' you say? I didnt do that. I did however used music to help me through stressful times. Still do. I do NOT re-live those days as you say. I like the here and now much better. I like "me" much better than I did then.Probably b/c I had to be the proper parent and do everything just right and push my true identity aside. Now, I dont have to, I just live the way I choose. If someone doesnt like it, not my problem. I dont hurt anyone, so no harm done there.When you get older you start to realize those things. I am more of a kid at heart now than when I was twenty something. I was more grown up at twenty something than now. I also have more fun now.We all have responsibilties and I take mine seriously, when I have to but not for too long or I'd go bonkers! No, I wouldnt pay 42 cents (or whatever it is now) to mail in a check for 21 cents. Call them and see if they can get rid of that for ya. Get names and write it down, in case they forget. They have a thing where they are allowed to waive certain monies under a certain dollar amount. Good Luck. Haha I'll call them. And about me being 18 (19 next month!) i'm cut-off from my family, I live in my own townhouse, I'm a full-time college student (i support my schooling financially) and I work. I'd say I'm an adult by those measures. But yea, you're right, I have a long time ahead of me. I think that's why I miss being a child so much. I grew up pretty quickly. At 16 I was almost as independent as I am now. As a matter of fact there really wasn't much of a difference other than living with my parents versus not, but I saw them about as much as I do now (which is like never). And i'm glad you didn't follow the trend. Freethinkers are harder to come by nowadays.
	cagnet86: 07/14/2008 1:09 PM 21 cents... lol. That's a whole lot better than writing a $120 check to the same damn company!
	mcrluvr4evr: 07/14/2008 3:09 PM me to! and although im not much past the kid years i still miss it terribly...
	real36: 07/14/2008 8:27 PM vancecordell, I didnt know you lived on your own, You do see things differently when you are in that position. I can see where you are coming from now and have a better understanding as to why you are saying those things.Have been on my own since I was 18. I am sorry you dont have a close relationship with your parents. That makes it harder. I was close w/my dad. No real relationship with my mom. Things can change with your parents, hopefully for the better, you never know. Being on your own like that does make you grow up quickly. I give you alot of credit for taking care of yourself. Good Luck in everything you do!
	lexi: 07/15/2008 9:45 AM I agree. being a kid was the best. there's no thrill in chasing anyone anymore unless you get to kick them in the teeth as you put it
	immz: 08/09/2008 11:28 AM vancecordell said: (Comcast just sent me a bill for 21 cents. What the fuck. I'm not writing a fucking check for 21 cents). Seriously, what did you do that cost 21 cents???